Its killing me. Really.

Assalamualaikum.


hari ni...ak sgt3 kecewa...for no reason. actually ada ba reasonnya..family reason and also myself reason.
my mom told me something that I dont want to hear it because i know when i hear that,my heart will turn into stone.  also i dont want my mom cry again and again. its make me sick. Really sick. no need to tell you my family matter,,membuka aib seja..bikin malu..yg pntg hari ni hati ak hancur sgt..tmbh lagi dgn masalah hati dan perasaan ni..ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its killing me!!

now dkt library suria sabah,mengasi tenang hati...tmpt ni jak buat ak tenang...mw menangis tpi tidak berteman..nangis dlm hati jaklaa..air mata pun berlinang suda ni..nasib x flow trus...kalu x malu cek naa..

masalah hati ak ni yg rumit..mcm bodoh jak...aii hati..napa kw mesti merana?? x boleh ka kw trus happy go lucky mcm selalu?? ntah...tdi ak tguk fb..trus kcewa tahap bapa ultraman ni..hahaha...bodoh2..npa ak x bagitw awal2..terlambat wei~~

urg selalu tguk ak happy go lucky...gila2...suka dgr msalah urg lain and help them but i cant help myself..betull...sekrg ni family ak tguk ak rilex jak...tpi dlm hati mmg hancur mcm biskut kna pijak tayar lori..pasal ni masalah jgk ak slalu marah2...*kesian kat bro kecil ak di rumah tu..malar kena marah..
ntahla...malas mw pikir..x lama hati ni boleh jadi batu ba..gara2 lelaki seja..kc tmbh dgn family kc rangup masalah ak..mmg jdi batula ni hati..sekrg hidup ak mmg messy gila berhambur suda..ntah..ak tggu musim sekolah ak start jak ni...so ak bole lupa dia and wat bodoh dgn masalah family ak yg meruncing..

doakanla masalah ak cepat selesai and ak boleh buang dia jauh2 dari mata and hidup dia...ak tamaw jumpa dia lagi..sekian.